If you’ve ever dipped your toes into the pool of Southern California surf rock, chances are you’ve heard the honeyed, shoegaze-y melodies of The Aquadolls. Formed in 2012, the group has undergone many transformations, finally settling into its current iteration in 2018, with Melissa Brooks on lead vocals, Jaqueline Proctor on drums, and Keilah Nina on bass.
In spite of a particularly busy calendar, The Aquadolls have still given us something to sink our teeth into; their newest single, “Disappearing Girl,” contends with one of the harshest hands the universe can deal a relationship: poor timing.
“‘Disappearing Girl’ is about not being able to put yourself first while in a relationship,” Lead singer Melissa Brooks says of the song. “No matter how much the other person wants to reach you they can’t, and you continue to drift apart until the relationship fizzles out into a distant dream.” And the hazy guitar progression layered with Brooks’s crystalline vocals creates a vision of this dreamscape, while the juxtaposition of the minor and major chords traces the ups and downs of a tumultuous relationship that is doomed to ultimately fade.
Loss is inevitable in growth, whether it’s the loss of a lover, a friend, or a part of yourself. We’ll ultimately have no choice but to face it head on, but at least we’re in good company. In “Disappearing Girl,” The Aquadolls cultivate for their listeners a space of communal mourning, but also a space for recognition and maturation. We can’t be sure why they extend this generous invitation to their private worlds. Perhaps it’s because the exposure of these intimate scenes is a catharsis for the Aquadolls; maybe they need to say it just as much as we need to hear it, and maybe it’s an indication that loss has the capacity to unify humans in a way not many things can. At the end of the day, all we really want is “something to hold us tight,” right?

photo by: Savanna Morales